If you’ve been following me for a while, you may remember that I made the decision to start running last spring. My ultimate goal is to be able to run a 5K. For a while there, I was updating everyone every week with my progress.
As you might have noticed, I haven’t done one of those updates in a long time! If I’m being completely honest, I haven’t been running consistently since the beginning of summer. I not only got too relaxed with my diet during the summer, but I also started to get a little lazy with my running training as well. My family and I were going to our lake cottage almost every weekend, and I wasn’t feeling very motivated to jump on the treadmill and run when I was at home. Then, once I fell out of the routine for a couple of weeks, it became even more difficult to get back into it. I haven’t stopped running completely, but I definitely haven’t been running as much I want to be.
After a few months of inconsistent training, I have finally decided to get back at it and start running again. Now, I’m not completely out of shape since I have been exercising often, but let tell you, pushing myself to run again was still harder than I thought it was going to be.
That first day, I only ran 30 seconds and then walked 1 minute, and I assumed that I wouldn’t be sore after. Keep in mind, I was running for 14 minutes at a time at the beginning of summer. I wanted to start out slow, but I also wasn’t expecting it to be too difficult. Later on in the day though, I definitely started getting sore legs. The next day, the pain was worse, and I even felt like I pulled muscles in my stomach.
To be honest, I felt really embarrassed. I couldn’t believe that I was back to square one again. Not only did I have to push through the physical obstacle of running again, but I also had to deal with the mental struggle of it as well. I’ve mentioned this before, but I absolutely have the tendency to be a perfectionist. I really put a lot of pressure on myself to do the best that I can, and when I don’t measure up to my own standards, I end up feeling disappointed in myself.
If I was looking at this situation realistically, I would have realized that I need to build my stamina back up again. Since I’m out of practice, I can’t expect my body to be running at the same level that I had been a few months ago. Deep down I know these things, but it’s hard to accept that when you feel like you can do better. I know that I have the ability to run for a longer period of time, so it was a little disappointing to realize that I had taken a few steps back in my training.
After that first disappointing running workout, I could have just decided to give up on running altogether and forgot about ever running a 5K. I chose not to do that though. Like I said, I know that I can run 14 minutes at a time, and I’m determined to get back to that level again. Yes, I did take a break and lose motivation for a while, but that doesn’t mean that I should give up on that original dream of running a 5K. I’ve said this so many times, but this journey will always be full of ups and downs, and you can’t give up when you’re at the bottom again. There will always be a bump in the road and an obstacle to work through, and it’s so important that you don’t give up.
I’m pleased to say that my second running workout went a little better. I still feel sore after running, but I know that I will get stronger again in time. I’m slowly getting back into running again, and I am currently still in the phase of running 30 seconds and walking 1 minute. It will be a slow journey from here, but I know that I will be back to running 14 minutes at a time again. And I am still just as determined to run a whole 5K. Maybe it won’t be as soon as I thought, but I will get there eventually.
I wanted to write this post today not only to update you on how my running (or lack of running) has been going, but also to encourage anyone who has felt like giving up. Don’t feel ashamed if you’ve gotten off track, whether that’s with a healthy diet or a workout schedule. The best part about getting healthy is that you can always try again. You’ll only be stuck in the same spot if you let yourself believe that. We all have a second chance, and we can always get better.
Have you fallen off track on your own healthy journeys lately? How have you worked through that? I’d love to know your thoughts on this! And since I am starting up my running schedule again, I will make sure to update everyone on how I’m doing. I’ve missed running, and I’m looking forward to making it a weekly habit again.